my beautiful life!

  • May. 3rd, 2008 at 11:31 PM
a big applause for myself! i am the "employee of the month" AGAIN. of course, i received another gift card! yuhoo! behind my success is a very loving GOD who never leaves and remembers me no matter what;  a  supportive husband who motivates me to hurdle life's maze; and a family who trusts and believes in my strength and capabilities!

. . . i lived my whole life in the PI. however, i technically grew here in the US. i learned and continuously  learning the twists and turns of life since i got here. unexpectedly, i easily coped up the way of life (don't think about clubbing, partying and shopping) here. upon i arrived here, i literally didn't waste a minute of my life into something useless. i helped myself a lot to understand and know the place where i am. as i live here, i realized that opportunities are great if you are willing to embrace 'em and be a master of your life.

right now, i stay focus in the field of accounting. this is something that arouses the professional aspect of my life. in a short period of time, i've forgotten my long time dream, of becoming a lawyer. i closed that chapter and never will bother to go back and re-open. those were the days! those were the years! those were the times! and that was it!

btw, last night, i called up my mom to break the news. i admit, my mom is a typical stage momma. oh boy, when you hear her praising me on the phone, you will really crack up. and she continuously praises me because on that same night, it was the first i told her about my promotion and let her know that this is the second time i became an employee of the month. lol. atleast, i had 3 surprises for her at a time!  plus,  i informed her that  i just send money! hahahaha!

third world chameleon

  • Apr. 5th, 2008 at 2:05 AM
lately, i felt that i am not acting normal.

you bet?

geeezzz, i got "crackers" eyes- such a real & reel wannabee moi!

i've been busy these past few weeks. literally busy!!! to the extent that my brain couldn't even breathe!

and it gives such a bad effect. i know this is not a wise move either to play with my eyes. damn it! i just can't resist to try new white elephant thingy!

hmmm, a third world fella with pacific blue eyes? amethyst? gray?  and turquoise? ouch, insanity is kickin'!


i am one of them now.

  • Mar. 23rd, 2008 at 9:46 PM
ssshhh, don't tell anybody about this!





however, i would love the whole world to know that . . . i lied earlier.

. . . . you almost believe, right? ! ? ! go figure what i really meant.

pardon me, i've been busy and i'm in verge of insanity. rofl.

wonderful wander of a neophyte

  • Mar. 5th, 2008 at 10:25 PM
*** UPDATE: 03/06: I FELT HONORED BEING THE "EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTH FOR FEBRUARY". JUST GOT MY GIFTCARD FROM THE COMPANY. BLEEHHH. ROFL***

my career is a far cry (in a good way) from how it was back home. as i trudge in the land of milk and honey, i felt that a single step i took is a milestone journey and i am proud of it.  finding and nailing a great job was never a problem since i started in the market. i never thought this would happen to me in the foreign land  with the fact that i am from the third world and competition here is very tough. i may sound like someone who has inferiority complex and with low self-esteem but it's a fact.

i've been here in the US for almost a year only. to be exact, i've been wandering for a year and four months in the world that's way different from where i was raised and technically grew. on my first job interview, i nailed the office managerial position right away. marketing myself in the business world was an easy through for me. i've never experienced chasing job ads - my first job application and interview was an instant blast. until now, i couldn't believe how i had that job on my hand after a tight competition with other 24 aspirants. i held that job for 7months. i let go and left that good career break because of  change of office location. giving up that career wasn't easy after getting comfortable working with a pleasant phase environment and great individuals.

two weeks prior to my resignation, i found myself in the market again with full of doubts to myself thinking that it might take long until i'll nail a good one. that doubt was just a mental torture for nothing. upon i update my resume in careerbuilder, a prospect employer called up and wanted to set an interview with me. of course, i replied with a big "sure" in an aggressive voice asking the time. he basically wanted to have an interview on the time i wasn't available. i told him that i have a full-time job that i don't want to skip and the earliest i could have an interview is 3days after his desired day. a businessman like him is obviously not available and he offered to have an interview then, on my lunch break. he drove to where i work and had a lunch interview with me. lol. he told me that i will probably hear from him 2weeks after the interview because he'll be out of the country. i said okay, and that will not be a problem.

omg! after a week, another company called for an interview. i am not a laidback person, i grab every opportunity.  i went for an interview and this time, it's  an accounts payable job. i went for it and hurdled 2 interviews which literally means i nailed the job. oh, what a relief!  i told the controller to give me a week  before i get on-board with them. upon i arrived home, that 2nd prospect employer who earlier interviewed me called up saying that i got hired. i honestly told him that i just got an offer and i grabbed it. knowing that i found one, he still wants me to work with him as a part time bookkeeper/ A/P & A/R.

presently, i am working as accounts payable supervisor and  a part-time bookkeeper/ A/P & A/R. huh, everything is all about "numbers". lol. i am not complaining. actually i helluuvaaaaaa love it!everyday is a learning and nothing could beat the thrill of being a real corporate woman, not a slave. lol.

i am happy on the outcome of my career even i am a neophyte in the US. and who said that a successful career woman could never have a successful married life? no way! i possess BOTH- a happy married life and a kick ass career! *rofl*. i give back all the greatest things that happened in my life to my loving and supportive husband.  he's the main reason of who i am now.




however, i am sad that my parents and siblings can't physically witness what kind of a career person i am now. all they just hear are great stories from me on how i earned my first and present jobs with no sweat. and the fact that in my whole life here, i only had three job interviews and i nail them all.



ready for motherhood!

  • Feb. 24th, 2008 at 12:44 AM
unfortunately, not myself as i am not pregnant yet. luckily, my sis faces a very noble profession- motherhood! as she turned her back from being single and entered married life, she and her husband started a family right then. whoa! time to celebrate! congratulations to both of you. and of course, i am a very happy expectant aunt.

despite my sister's pregnancy morning sickness, she bravely flew to  visit florida and stayed with us for 3 nights.  the night  as she flew  from boston,  i can't wait to be with and finally hug her. she and i were like twins- indeed inseparable! her short and unplanned vacay eased up the cheesy miss feeling we have with each other. we were chatting that morning then she mentioned to go away from chilly boston to avail warm breeze of florida leaving behind her hubby. that was really an impromptu flight. and must be the caused of pregnancy! lol.



the joy that i feel in lieu of my sister's pregnancy is above everything. i am happy how pregnancy shaped her to be more mature and responsible about  life.  as an expectant mom, she does what the book says! awesome! the way she talks to the baby in her tummy, makes my heart melts. she never used to eat veggies. now, she stuffed her tummy with them. she diligently take all the medications that she has to. oh man, she knows every bits of do's and dont's of pregnancy! wonderful!

. . . i miss my sister very much and the fact that we get together for few days only, it made me miss her more. i cried the whole day and night after she left. i went back and forth to the bedroom where she slept and hugged all the pillows she used. btw, on the other note, i am a real drama queen. lol.

every time i saw her pics, i thanked GOD on how He blessed her a good life, a loving husband and the joy of the child that's inside her. GOD is kind enough to trust her nurture a life of an angel. i hope and pray for a healthy baby and a less painful delivery.

i snatched some of her photos. . .









p.s. speaking of motherhood, i would like to congrats my friend anti and her husband as well. ohmygod, she's a sneaky preggy, she surprised me about it. 
 hubby and i had an early valentine blast from our 3-day bahamas cruise in "majesty of the seas" (held 2,700 passengers except the ship's crews) that's owned by royal caribbean cruise line.




. . . see our lives in pictures for  a  3-day cruise and bahamas thrills!


our stateroom


our room # at deck 10


the wine that awaits us in our room


the obligatory emergency drill before the departure


. . . departing miami- sights to see and behold!




. . . "first-must-have photos" upon on-board!




. . . moments in the ship witnessed by the waves- formal dining, drinking, shopping, casino!




. . . first stop: coco cay, bahamas
(trivia: privately owned by the royal caribbean cruise line. a cococutter/tender  has to take us there from the cruise ship)





. . . next and final stop: nassau, bahamas! a boring and rainy day!




oh, so wifey material! hmmppp

  • Dec. 19th, 2007 at 11:30 PM
whoa! a sort of self-admiration. honestly, i'm trying my very best to be an excellent  wife that i could be. after a year of being married, i am closer to the kitchen to do some cooking. yikes! yeah, it took a year for me to fell in love with it. on weekends, specifically on saturday night, i look forward for sunday afternoon to cook. we don't cook on saturday unless necessary because we dine out.

well, well, well. . . cooking is not the only thing! i've been so focused on our bathroom too. it's been an eye sore and needs an urgent cure. i requested hubby to put some add-ons. i added some  sweet nothings to the eyes! i just love 'em, the way they're lined in the ramp. these pretty marbles are so relaxin'. i wanted to roll on the floor. the other night, i conveniently sat down on the floor to do both of my nails. before i put 'em, i told my hubby not to step on the ramp when he walks out from the shower of else he'll get his tough and bitter reward- slip and break a leg!


pictionary: a loner's game

  • Dec. 12th, 2007 at 11:01 PM
most of the time, i want to be by myself!

most of the time, i am alone!

just lately when my friend left her job, i felt that i drew back my life too much from others and it's too late! now, i have no any other choice on my lunch break at work but to sit down in a park and play  "pictionary"! i wished to share a vast world with everybody. i wished i wasn't alone though i had no any other option.

"pictionary" was a game with my lil, sweet and cheap toy. my mini-digi, my greatest companion. this is just as big as a matchbox but the joy it gives is as huge as the universe.










my second turkey meal

  • Nov. 23rd, 2007 at 11:17 PM
. . . which literally means my second year in the US for thanksgiving day celebration and normally spent with my hubby and my new family. nothing much on thanksgiving though. it's all about the "turkey" that makes me sleepy after an uber big meal. omg! we had so much food which drove me crazy what to pick or not. well, what really matters on thanksgiving is a long weekend and no early self-buggin' to get up and rush my butt to work. i will be challenged how to get up early on monday after such eternal bumming around.

after i pigged out, i could hardly get going. so then, i just stay in bed and play a lil camwhoring. lol. call me a "matrona playa". hehehe! damn, i am so fat at the moment that makes myself look so oldie.









oh, there were crazy sale and some dude were in the store at 1:00am lined up to get in.  omg! holy crap! uh, uh, not meeeeeee. however, hubby woke me up this morning about the GPS he wants to buy online. fortunately, they have a stock of it still. the big Q, what time he woke me up though? grrr, it was freakin' 6:00am. i woke up on the right side of the bed. i didn't bitch at all. and that's unsual. lol. my big baby, my mahal, my hubby is sick like a dawg. he's suffering from dry cough and cold. i hope he will get better soon so i would have something to be thankful of.

pinay poopanapzzi

  • Nov. 10th, 2007 at 12:10 AM
i was for 6days! lol. people in grenada call his/her fellow caribbean as "poopanapzzi". how cool that slang term, ayt? dare you, it has no meaning at  all. it's just plain tongue's twist. for example, if you live in "mt.moritz", hilly north part of grenada, they call each other as "mang-mang".   

just got back from our hilarious vacay. i can't stand those bumpy flights due to hurricane alert. damn it. i was vomiting from time to time. i felt like a piece of dice shook in a bottle. it was an unforgettable horror flight experience.



btw, we spent a night in puerto rico and i didn't even got to enjoy it. we missed our flight so we struggled to stay in courtyard marriot hotel. omg! i love the compliment lollilop they had. i even asked the receptionist if i could grab five of 'em. and of course, he allowed me to do it! hehehe! the "cuban soup" was not bad. it was a good warm up to my empty stomach especially my sick self from vomiting. we were not in the mood at all. and yeah, i had camwhoring diet. the only thing that will remind me or puerto rico is their coke in can that  was written in spanish. i even took it at home. i got tired of it. i threw it few hours later.



. . . the next day after we arrived in grenada, i need to report to the immigration office to get my passport stamped. man, i flew all the way without any visa at all though it's a requisite for every filipino to enter the island.





outside the immigration office with my mom-in-law

the weather didn't agree with us- the rain went off and on. we just drove around the island- st.georges, mt.moritz and grand anse! i literally fell in love to those peaceful places. but duh, the prices of every items in the store killed me. i held my money and kept myself not to change it to EC $ so that i will never get tempted to buy anything regardless how i liked something. no way, josey!!!

6days in grenada was damn short. we didn't have a chance to take the water taxi to carriacou and petit martinique! grrr! we didn't meet the prime minister who's a family friend. but hey, i love grenada's roti(of any kind), nutmeg ice cream and calalloo soup. we pigged out at the famous "nutmeg" and "tropicana" restaurant! hmmm, yummy food. where could i get nutmeg ice cream and calalloo soup, NOW?!?!? i want more. more. more.


tropicana restaurant as a background



promoting (lol) "nutmeg" restaurant with my mom-in-law.



with me is one of the owners of "sugar and spice" ice cream parlor

more pics:







grenada's oldest bridge



cricket (grenada's famous sport) stadium as a background


myself and my son convinced the security guard to have a picture with him:




and myself with a school girl walking along the esplanade street.




before i end this post, i would like to acknowledge  "air jamaica's" accomodation, it was wonderful and made my few hours stay in the country great! i will bravely say this, "AA sucks!"


 

off to caribbean island!

  • Oct. 14th, 2007 at 11:42 PM
guess who?

ehem, your cam'O! wuhoooo, it's final- we are heading to caribbean island specifically in grenada on oct.30 to nov.5! i'm very excited and can't wait to hop in the plane. omygosh, is this real? i need to give a lil slap on my face to sink in that it's REAL! i was supposed to write about our trip last week but i was occupied with my online business. this has been a plan since sept but due to my work, we weren't able to pursue it.

with so much astonishment, i search up in the internet what to see and how to explore the island, grenada. look what i've found- the place is wonderful and calm. who can't be excited to see these?






and yeah, hubby broke the news last night, we will go on a cruise sometime in dec or jan. life's so wonderful! thank you GOD! i guess at this time, we will go in bahamas! i can't confirm really the exact place. he reiterated again about the cruise when we went on a bike ride. i told him that i have to work out for my soaring weight to plop right away to 100lbs. hahaha! can someone say how fat i am so i would really get inspired to loose? come on, let me feel devasted! lol.

these two trips are real gift for both of us because it will be our anniversary on oct.21. time flies so fast! real fast! 

  

pinay ako!

  • Oct. 3rd, 2007 at 9:23 AM

kumusta po kayo?

ako po'y humihingi ng paumanhin sa aking pagkalimot sa blog na ito. nangyayari po lamang na ako'y madaming ginagawa at ang 24 oras ay hindi sapat sa araw-araw. at sa ngayon po ay may bago akong pinagkakabaalahan- ang aking maliit na negosyo. ang produkto po ng aking negosyo ay pawang mga bagay na aking kinahihiligan. ang gaan po ng pakiramdam na naiilabas ko ang aking talento sa mga bagay-bagay na nakakapagbigay saya sa akin. 

hindi po ba't nakakalumbay ng malayo sa bansang, "perlas ng silanganan"? opo, ang ibig kong sabihin ay ang "Republika ng Pilipinas". kasalukuyan po akong nasa Estados Unidos at sobrang nalulumbay sapagkat naiwan ang aking pamilya at mga mahal sa buhay doon. nakakalungkot isipin na iniwan ko ang bansa kung saan ako lumaki, nagkaisip at may malawak na karanasan. wala po akong magawa sa mga panahong ito sapagkat sinunod ko ang aking puso. umibig ako sa isang dayuhan at upang mabuo ang pamilya kelangan kong tumira sa bansa kung nasaan ang aking asawa. sa sitwasyong ito, naisip ko pong magdisenyo ng "logo" na may temang, "taas noo pinay" sa mga t-shirt, card, orasan at iba pa. naluha po ako sa saya sa disenyong aking nagawa kahit ito'y simple lamang. nailabas ko ang aking saloobin at  tibok na aking puso sa pagiging pinay. ang mga pilipino saan mang sulok ng mundo pumunta, sa puso't diwa, "pinoy-na-pinoy"! hindi po ba? sa katunayan, masarap ang tuyo't itlog na maalat kesa mga "hamburger", "steak", at pasta ng mga italyano. naku po, sa ngayong tag-ulan dito sa Florida, nagluto ako ng tuyo at kanin. karaniwan ko po itong ginagawa dahil ako'y umay-na-umay na sa mga pagkain dito. ayaw na ayaw ng mga dayuhan ang amoy nito sapagkat kabaligtaran naman sa atin. ninanamnam ko ng husto ang tuyo!  

sa ibaba ay mga larawan ng mga produkto:
 


"logo"
























Marami pa po akong ibang mga produkto at makikita sa "website"  na ito.
paki-click po lamang ng larawan sa ibaba. 












 

oh, you missed the cam'o!

  • Sep. 20th, 2007 at 10:27 PM
i almost forgot that i'm keeping a blog. i almost forgot that my readers are waiting for my words. uhhmmm, i bet it's almost 3 weeks since i took a glimpse on this silent rendezvous. is there such an offense called- "blog negligence"?

i've been in hiatus and stuffed with tons of things that never ends. everything is like "eternity" that falls on the wrong side of the bed. how i wish the eternity i am talking about is in heaven like. huh, life!

my absence would create a long verbal diarrhea, so, hold on until i burst my emotions. erstwhile, i was talking with my niece krizia and cousin joanne. they asked and demanded that their pics should be posted. what the heck is wrong with these people? i just said "yes" though their demands doesn't make sense at all.

okay, i'm giving a once in a lifetime privilege and opportunity to these two. i hope seeing their pics in my precious and famous blog could bring joy in themselves.


here's krizia- a young cam'o!



the second cam'o- my cheerful cousin, joan!

(in the middle)



... and someone almost gave me a heart attack for being so demanding to design her blog. she has no satisfaction at all. everything is a big act of complain. i was so pissed. i was pushed to name her blog as- "i am duday!" she quickly said that the title sucks. she didn't know that it was just a bitter teaser.



(blog found at: http://bostonprincess.multiply.com)

btw, "duday" just got back from her "state- hopping"  without  a present for me even a cheap ass fridge magnet. all i get from her are short notes about their stay from one state to another. it's really good being a bum. you could go anywhere in the world. unlike me, a corporate slave whom should found herself in the caribbean a week ago but due to my work, we didn't flee. my work messed up the whole business trip! hopefully, by hook or by crook, we will be set for a trip on the second week of october. finally i could have my ever dreamed braided hair and black fingernails.

lately, i was really feeling sick of my weight. it soars high as a kite. so let's play "pictionary" on my pics back when i was kinda slim. i miss those moments/ years . . . or the days when weight wasn't an issue:

     













now, your camwhore is a far cry to those pics.  i  am 118lbs.! no lies! tsk, tsk, tsk! i'm putting the blame to the chocs, cookies, bagels and sodas. my weight woe brings me in a deep shit.

i can't guarantee when to post my recent pics because it's really shameful to drag a huge face. sorry. everyone expects pics from me everytime i post something. meanwhile, i will put you all in a "photo-diet".

i will cut this post right here. my bed is calling me nor my eyes could hardly open.

i am begging to all my readers to watch out for my next post. we will talk about business and cheap fashion picks.

nitey. nitey. nitey.

gimme bundles of cotton swabs!!!

  • Aug. 27th, 2007 at 7:54 PM
and cock 'em all in my ears...

this son of a I3i+ch nagged to me until his throat dropped due to my monstrous level of stupidity, laziness and unbearable procrastination. weekend was like cuddling in hell, walking headless inside the house and eating my worthless pride. i guess it was really hard for him to deal with a mischievous wife who has helpless and hopeless case of ADHD.

last weekend... 

while watching  a movie,  i  made numerous toss  in the couch and  can't just shut my mouth from talking. i asked so much questions. everything was why, what, when and where! he gets so annoyed which i'm pretty sure everyone will feel when get destructed from watching an interesting movie in it's climax.  how dare is he to ask if there  are ants in my pants because of constant motions i do in the couch. what a jerk! 

that same day before the incident, he made me clean the mess i did inside the car. a bottle of coke was all over the passenger's seat. huh, a clumsy me spilled gallons of coke. what a thoughtless pig! well, he didn't  literally  make me  clean. on other words,  i ended up helping him  rather  than him helping me. 

usually, it's so hard for me to accept my mistakes and saying sorry isn't in my plate all the time. no way, josey!  i was fuming  mad.  i curled up in our bed. prior to that, i put on black dip liners and lye down like a hyena. no one could beat this ass!



then, history tells how i dealt on cooling off my mind:



when i arrived at work today, i made numerous tip-toe trips in the pantry to make choco. it pinch my heart thinking that he almost walk over me.  choco might help ease the pain.



since i reach home, hubby made several trips to the bathroom to poop. i joked with him in an insult tone how he stinked up the bathroom. i guess i made a big come back, a bitter revenge. whatchathink?




(this post is full of and mostly an exaggeration of my thoughts for i have nothing to do.my hubby is not mean! i could say, i am!)


 

go for gold, tattooed bitch. . .

  • Aug. 25th, 2007 at 10:32 PM
yes! finally, i got my tat done! oh boi, i felt like a rockstar! i dunno... i dunno... i dunno... but,  i had expressed myself  in other way besides  busting my butt sitting in front of the puter and silently tattle the ups and downs of my life. i was stunned of myself because i never felt any hesitation dragging myself elsewhere with a tat on my back. my families, my friends, my enemies and everyone else know that i never have the guts and courage of putting myself on something that won't benefit me.  now, this is the newly changed, phamzy! literally, that "change" makes myself out of a shell as a realization that life is an adventure. erstwhile,  i was too chicken to push myself over things.



i loose control on myself  due to hubby's irrevocable resignation  as my photographer. he made his last statement to quit on working with me. rofl. he really made me, sick! on my first attempt to take pics of my tat by myself, it was so damn unsuccessful!



camwhores never give up! i gave a second attempt. kinda close to...  yet needs a lil adjustment.

 

i was really frustrated on the outcome of the pics.  i towed my step-son  and begged him  to take pics  of my beloved tat. ahhh, third  time is a charm.  voila! que linda!



i've been talking a lot about my tat. but, did i ever mention that it's a fake one?  it's a rub-it-off-to-your-skin tat! hahaha! i caught and read your mind that you almost believe.

seriously, hubby's resignation as my official photographer is killing me.  it's killing me! it's killing me! yeah, you heard me right! hell, he's still my chauffeur! out of frustrations, i let him drove me to the store to splurge some monies. again, i bought some colorful frocks to paint the road red. this is my fave though, a lovely gold/light bronzed tube dress. oh my, i've been scouting this so long and finally it's mine now. mine! mine! mine! i nearly couldn't have this. there was no price tag on it. i  begged the saleslady to dig out and no one could ever sent me out of the store without it even they'll gonna close the store. so bitchy of me, right?



huh! being a photographer of your own self is like living in hell. these pics came out funny. with my despair desire to took my face, i almost did 20+ shots but i am really unfortunate.


mommalicious i mishu!

  • Aug. 24th, 2007 at 7:05 PM


inset photo: my in-laws wedding


mom was off to canada since last monday and only the 3 of us are left at home. she's on indefinite leave from cooking for our dinner every night. lol. and from me who keeps buggin' her how i gained weight, how shorty  and ugly i am. finally, her ears took a rest from my  usual whines. everytime i complain, i didn't emember any moment that she ignores it. she's there to listen and never failed to give some advise. she makes me feel better by throwing nice words to me.

since she left, we made several calls to her already. she enjoys her stay there and appreciates everything about the country. she told me that hubby and i should see canada because the sceneries are really wonderful. she's been to many places  as what every  tourists must do and settle some business. i am really happy that she's enjoying there. i can't wait for her to get back and give a tight hug. everyone knows how close and attached i am to my mom-in-law. too bad, i never get a chance to see my dad-in-law. he passed away 3 years ago.

though i am not really looking forward for some presents from her, i know she'll get something for me and i can't wait to hold it/'em. even with the short time that we were together, she's aware on things that i like and love. she surely knows my taste on dresses and accessories.

mom teaches me so much good things. and i learned from her about wifehood (hehehe, pardon my own layman's word). one thing i like about her, she values everything especially memories of her two sons. she kept hubby and his bro's hair on their first haircuts. the suits  they wore  in their baptism are still  intact. all the pictures where neatly kept in the memory box. everyone's birthdates and anniversaries are written in the calendar and inserted in the bible.



whew! honestly, i can't wait for her to be back. 

lemme share something that's totally out of the track. i saw "joe" last weekend and i bought a packet of 'em. anyone who can still remember this? i love this big time when i was young. this was been a part of my childhood. hellouurrrrrrrr, it's "bazooka joe"!



back with some things

  • Aug. 23rd, 2007 at 11:38 PM
okay, okay, okay! i am back blogging after a long hiatus. i am talking about four days of leave of absence in "blogsphere". omg! with my absence, i received tons of threats  to  resume  ASAP and they don't like overdue posts. donkeys, you all need to be patient. rofl.  due to heavy volumes  of demands,  i have to glue myself again in the puter and stick my nose  on some issues. 

just for everyone to feel better, i have some fresh presents for all. these are my masterpieces as an outcome of mind and heart liberalism. this is a creative silent rendezvous of my mind and heart. for the "pros", they will consider these as odds-and-ends or crap-scraps but, no one could ever hold me back to post these.

i am not sure if you would all love these. just deal with 'em! give a glimpse though on my non-conceptual art.






u.n.k.n.o.w.n

  • Aug. 19th, 2007 at 12:19 AM



have you ever experienced in your life that  you feel so empty for no any reason?
have you ever felt  down but you just can't tell why?
have you ever felt the sudden twists and turns of the world?
... and you are caught in the middle of nothingness and nowhere?
that's the the art, reason and purpose of existence.
isn't it strange?


(this post is a "reiteration" of life in general)


i feel blue and submerged down under. i can't help but turned emotional which tears slowly fell down. they fell as if water grows in my eyes. when my face gets wet, still it never get tired flowing and awashed a happy face. i, me and myself feel alone  as if no one cares who the hell i am.  i am alone! i am an island! i am a unique piece that  no one bothers to pick.

yet, i dream, hope and believe that one day, a great beam would dwell not only a night but evryday as day turns to night. thus, when the night is still, my smile is still! i still love when night covers the whole phase of the world. i feel peace, silence and the warm a day gives, cooled down.

sometimes, i am too chicken to try new things and i limit my wings to fly on just a certain place. i tend to move backward instead of pushing myself forward. i don't know why inferiority complex outsmart me sometimes despite of the strong personality that i have. i am now sheltered in a limited roof wherein shyness rains a lot and cowardness showers most times.

i can't forget a friend who said, "your shyness won't bring you anywhere.".. well, my dear friend, i still have your words and everyday, i try myself to overpower my shyness. i know I have a strong power to overcome my shyness.

a loud woman struts deeper. at times, when i started to speak you can't make my mouth shut. when i speak, i do not make noise. i make sense! i love to talk. i love to be heard. i am a human being with a brain. i may have a not so sharp mind but my ideas and thoughts are deep. start to dig my mind!

i can't see a bright future ahead. it seems the world is cruel and it plays one's life to believe that tomorrow will be great.  oh life, why can't you say i will be who i want to be? oh life, why can't you give me a gold  throne rather than be sitted in a rocking chair  which i often fall? oh life, you owe me a life. give me a life. a life worth living for. light up my future so bright. i know there is a rainbow after the rain.let me see it soon so i will love my life.

yay! i am living that's why i am not senseless. i can see the dark night. i feel emotions. i can talk like human. i know when life went wrong. life can feel like heaven and could hurt like hell. it's true that to have the rose, you must accept the thorns and if you have the courage to live, you must have the courage to suffer. life, you are so uncertain. please do not rock my world. please be stable once.

peace out life, when i complained when you rock me so fast. i love my life so much. i had lived 25 yrs of my life and still it rocks.

finally i woke up. . . . uhg, those thoughts happened when i was in deep slumber and dreaming.


then, later i realized. . . "cogito, ergo sum".



crazy evah!

  • Aug. 15th, 2007 at 10:35 PM


something that's not worth it drives me crazy! i bought the so-called, "1000 prints 100 ways to wear 1 item". out of 100 ways, i figured out 2 of 'em only. i can't keep this posh going. i don't know if i am just dumb or this piece of cloth is a trash. man, i have no patience with this darn piece of cloth anymore. this is the "horror" side of fashion! i rather be a fashion victim than a slave.



i am totally black out what to do with this. this might be getting a rest in my closet for eternity.  we will see and leave for the time to tell. if you ever see me wearing this again,  that means, i'm a real dumbo who spent my valuable hours to  figure it out to the highest level.  i am thinking to just quit working on it everytime i hold this piece of cloth.

if you noticed,  i cropped  those pics  because  they ain't really so pleasing to be here. i've been with so much trouble working with this and the pics didn't came out good. you could really see in my face how i try hard and been from hardships of this horror fashion. anyway, when i decided to end this entry, a sudden change in decision came up. i made up my mind to post the real photos behind those cropped ones setting aside the thought of receiving massive human attack by means of criticisms from my readers. i won't ever post pretty pics alone so people would praise me. that's being deceiving and pretentious. these are my ugliest pics that's worth to keep in your judgmental eyes and devious minds.however, the person has a pretty  pic of her heart within who painted so much beautiful memories to everyone.



those pics revealed how sunkissed i am. yeah, i love the sun. i've been very pushy to the sun even it poisoned my face.

(p.s. i am perfectly fine now after nursing my heat rash and sun blisters for 3 weeks.)

these short legs of mine suffer manic- depression everytime i am in the beach. my coward leg utters to stay under the umbrella to get some shade. the other one says i should enjoy the ray of the sun. there's always a war within me on what to do when i am out. most times, i end up in the sun totally forgetting the chaos it creates.



it's really getting late. i am sleepy as well. besides, i need to be at work earlier. before i retire, i want everyone to remember how this ugly face could be a "nightmare" when being criticize. so now, think twice before you will make a comment on my photos above. hahahaha!  i'm just kiddin'!  good night!  *muah*



you don't need to be a star

  • Aug. 13th, 2007 at 10:17 PM
paparazzi doesn't chase a "star" alone.
you don't need to live in a tinsel town to be chased after by a paparazzi.
any ordinary person with extra-ordinary level of insanity and high pace of vanity could put on a big act and portray like a famous star. been there! done that! hahahaha! i could really be  a silly girl and out of wack fella!

once upon a time, i tried to be "la-lohan", "brit","posh" or  "paris". my hubby's cousin took all these photos requested by moi in home depot when we went to shop for some flowers. i really feel like a super star within. i directed her what to do and explained when to take a pic of me. of course, i have to act as if these were candidly taken.

okay, these were the obligatory paparazzi's shots choreographed by your superstar, phamzy.  noticed the posh ensemble.  if you are my avid reader, you definitely saw me with the same ensemble before this post. btw, it's here. i had worn these the night before and almost slept with it. hehehe! to be honest, i never showered yet when these shots were taken. i rushed off in home depot with unwashed face, unbrushed teeth and uncombed hair. who cares! ! !



it's been a long time that i'm dying to polish my nails with black polisher however my pigtail doesn't want me to do it. my step-son said that he won't talk with me when i will sport a black nail in town. so then, i halt myself to do it. but now, no one could ever stop me to have a "bad-ass pose" with my hubby's short pants.  yeah, i love to wear my pigtail's clothes most times. everytime i retire to bed, i put on  his old and worn out white  shirts and boxers. hahaha! it's really comfy.


 
that's me as a "bad-ass"! my pig-tail's waistline is 34 inch. i had to tie the string tight so it won't streape all the way down.

so much for tonight. i know you would crack up laughing on me about this post.

<3, phamzy



this must be the "weekend". . .

  • Aug. 11th, 2007 at 11:12 PM
i am blaming my new found love fragrance, my "weekend burberry" for all the chaos and out of sanity stir that went on in my life today. there was a battle within me and thoughts wrestle in my mind whether to pick it up or not. i end up buying it though. i burned my moolah again over a crap! i am a real dumbo!

 

i've been milkin' my mind with an answer. everything just happened in a click and as fast as a bullet  when i bathe with it. i can't really hold back, boi! there was a big time camwhoring that happened in the household. nothing could beat my "weekend burberry"! i had my hubby (my pigtail) on tow for camwhoring. check out the matching ensemble-  "b. marley" colors. yeah, my pigtail <3s him so much. i learned to love B with pigtail's influence. i am thinking to sport the famous B dreads sometime when we go down to the caribbean.  this  was really the heaviest level of camwhoring. we didn't do anything today but chilled out inside the house.



that was not only it. i cleaned the bathroom today religiously after 2 weeks of prolonged procrastination. i meant to say that i did it spotlessly clean!



i cleaned that area most for mirrorwhoring reason.



i piled up the magazines as it should be. ohh, pardon me about that playboy mag. i skimmed with it sometimes when i am making poopy. please don't get me wrong. playboy mag is not a shit and way too far on what you think. most times, it's substantial.

btw, i really like to share this pretty toilet sit we got 2 months ago with a cutie brush on the side.



oh shoot! on the serious note, i guess i am going beyond my limit in blogging already. i almost  bare everything- from reading a playboy mag to a toilet sit exposure. i am hoping to still get respect from my readers. hehehehe! that's a bit of being a drama queen of me.

i was really tired after i cleaned. i took a good shower. rest off. and back to main dish- "camwhoring". an artsy side of me kicked in.



i really apologize to my mom for being a camwhore. she didn't raise me like this. but mom, i assure you that it is only all about camwhoring. that word, "cam" will remain there forever. i will never let it fly away from the second word, "whoring".

but, what is this? you let this thing happened when i was a baby. folks, i should have post a naked pic of mine when i was a baby but i rather have this one. i know you all expect it.




viii viii, mmiv @ viii:oo

  • Aug. 9th, 2007 at 11:00 PM
ehem, august 8 marks the day when hubby and myself got engage! marks the day when he made a mistake- being stuck to a biatch! and i made a right decision for saying, "YES"! until now, he's still happy with a biatch. i am enjoying being a queen!  he <3s me soooo much! ohhhhhhhh, i <3 my pigtail!

nothing grand happened on our engagement anniv. pigtail lost a lot of monies for the sunroof beamer he bought as cash on my bday.  btw, i didn't tell him to get my sunroof beamer. it was his own decision. i am not an  expensive lentil though. i am happy with things that cost peanuts.

i will let these pictures paint a thousand words in your eyes and hearts on how he and myself felt  yesterday.



here's one of our photos taken 2 yrs ago. omygod, time flies so fast!

sizzling couple on a chilly night:

random[ness]

  • Aug. 7th, 2007 at 8:59 PM
how was your day?

i had an exciting and thrilling tuesday! my best bud at workplace, liz and ingrid and myself went to the bar on a sizzling day around 1:00pm. we were wandering at riverfront, ft. laude when ingrid spotted a nearby bar. right then, she dragged us inside! i had no any other option and couldn't think of a reason not to. i was tongue tied.  they had me on tow. hehehehe! 

everyone knows that i don't drink. i had pineapple juice with me only. i opted to have "virgin pina colada" but they don't have. both of them slurped  the drinks fast because we should be back at work in an hour.  i am really sorry but i forgot what was the name of the drinks. poor me but i never drank any of those in my whole life. i am a good gurl!  all i could remember was- ingrid had a red color drink with a floating cherry.  liz had  two glasses- a red and blue color drinks. she played fool having her sunglasses inside the bar. since it was a hot day, she had to take off her suit though. i had a grand time with them!



it was a rush happy hour! we should be back to work at 2:00pm. i didn't know how they savor the drinks.  liz (desiree del valle look alike) works as a receptionist on the 17th floor while ingrid is an executive assistant. we get along well. we were born on the same year. needless to say, ingrid, liz and myself is 25 yrs old.

outside the bar are these beautiful boats. we are planning to take a cruise around ft. laude one day.



liz lived her life in ft. laude close to the bldg where we work so she knows the area well. she lived in this condo few months back.



ey, looky, looky on my sandals with bronze "whatever". hehehe! i love 'em to death. uhg, it cost me a leg and an arm for these! owz, i am kiddin'. this is so bohemian that it ain't hard for me to fell in love with 'em.

yuhooo, here comes the curly princess

  • Aug. 6th, 2007 at 11:26 PM
voila! finally, i sported my curly hair today! all those panty chasers who has nothing to offer but their  "family jewel" alone were staring at me. lol. nah, i am just joking! okay, so far i handled my new look well.



that was an early camwhoring with matching a "jollie li